Beckett Jude Rupp

I guess this is just for me.  I mean, there is a lot I would post on Facebook, but then I realize, it is a little too personal for everyone to see...wouldn't mind a few people, but really all 200+ friends?  Mostly, what I want to post on Facebook is really more for me than anyone else, so I am looking for another way to facebook just for me.  Maybe this will work.

I don't think I can put my heart into words.  I love that when I can't do that, God knows my heart any way.  It is so comforting.  And my feelings are unjudged with Him....but, It doesn't seem fair to love this guy so much!  I am really not a baby person, but this guy stole my heart.  I can't explain it, but because no one else will read this... it was almost like he was my son...  I know I don't feel "allowed" to love him this much....

So, leaving Indianapolis tonight was really hard.  I wish I could stay and check on him every day.  I want to see him as he gets better, be there for him and with the family for any rocky moments, and just be present.